Ayana
Interracial and Romance Author
Until It's Gone
PUBLISHER - Tiece Mickens Presents, LLC
ASIN - B01N6358FR
GENRE - Interracial Romance, Fiction, BWWM, Series
Synopsis
Stephanie Westbrooke is a beautiful, successful African American woman with the life she always dreamed of, until tragedy struck her world more than once. Dealing with the pain of having failed pregnancies, Stephanie didn't think her life could get any worse but boy was she wrong. With a withdrawn and cheating husband, she wonders if there is any hope left. Will she be able to save her marriage with a man she's been with for over a decade? Or, will she have to end everything she worked hard for and give up her seemingly perfect life?
Corey Westbrooke, husband to Stephanie, is a successful lawyer who wants nothing more than to have a happy family. But with his wife having multiple failed pregnancies he isn't so sure if she can give him what he wants. Feeling hurt, he goes out and tries to find someone that can. Not caring of anyone's feelings or his marriage, Corey thinks that he has found the perfect candidate. But will that all change when a new man walks into Stephanie's life and tries to win her heart?
Andrew Maverick, part CEO of Maverick Enterprise and client to Corey Westbrooke, is America's heart throb next to his brother. Living a bachelor's lifestyle in the public eye is something that people expect him to be, but it's not who he wants to be. Secretly wanting a family, he starts to look for the perfect girl to settle down with, but not just any girl, Stephanie Westbrooke. After seeing how her husband mistreats her and all the pain he has caused, Andrew swoops in and tries to help mend the pieces of her broken heart. Wanting her to be his so he can treat her like a queen, Andrew will stop at nothing to make her his future wife. Will he succeed in getting his dream woman or lose her forever?
Follow the three of them through this journey of love triangles, lies, and secrets to see if anyone gets their happy ending.
Reviews
"I really enjoy this book and cant wait for part 2 to come out... Now lets start on Corey who need his behind kicked for everything he have been doing to his wife since before they even got married he sitting up here talking about he want kids and the all Amercian Family but cant seem to keep his D in his pants and be faithful to his wife now I understand if he was hurt behind his wife miscarring they kids but he should not had blamed her like it was her fault... Melonie is one of the dumbest females I know in this book she knew this man was married and still stayed with him knowing he was not going to leave his wife and then have the nerve to try and move into they house now that is krazy but I do respect how Stephanie handle herself when in that situation with class and as a women with value head held high and did not n e body break her.. Yes Stephanie should had put her foot down a long time ago before things got out of control the way that they did but what women you know wouldn't want to save her marriage knowing you had only been with one man for 15yrs? putting your all, your sweat, tears, and soul in someone you thought you was going to be with for the rest of your life so yes she may have not been the strongest women when it came to leaving her husband but in my book I think she damn sure isn't weak or stupid so yes I give this book 5 stars and is ready for part 2"
"I loved the book but I hate how Stephanie is. I hope in part two she see her worth and I am ready to find out the family secrets just like she is. Andrew seems like he is playing for keeps. Can't wait to see what happens in part two."
Excerpt
"I'm so sorry for you lost." The doctor said. I looked up at him and nodded my head. He smiles sadly at me and then glances at my husband. "I hate to be the barrier of bad news but there is more." I perked up and looked at him. My husband looked up at him and grabbed my hand.
"What is it doctor?" My husband asked.
"Well, Mr. and Mrs. Westbrook I am sorry to inform you that you will not be able to have more kids. This time it's done too much damage and also the fact that it's happened more than once and almost back to back." The news hit me like a train on the tracks. I will not be able to have kids.
"What?" I asked confused and hurt.
"I am sorry there is just too much damage. Your uterus is just too weak. You will not be able to carry a child full term which will cause you to have more miscarriages and will do more damage. Your safest bet at this point is to get your tubes tied to avoid any more damage. As for having kids there are other options. You can either and adopt or surrogate. I am truly sorry. I will leave you two alone." He nodded and then walked out the room leaving me and my husband alone to think about what we just heard and what we should do. It was quiet for a while. All you heard was the machines beeping but other than that. Nothing. The room was pregnant with silence and tension until I had enough.
"What are we going to do?" I asked quietly while looking at my overwhelmed husband. He sighed and stood up from the chair. I knew he was hurt. This isn't the first time this has happened. This is the fourth time in the last 10 months and each time it's become harder and harder to accept. My husband and I has always talked about having a huge family. When we got married that was all we talked about. We've been married for six years now and we have yet to have children. The first two years we wanted to be alone and enjoy ourselves before we had children. When the third and fourth year of our marriage came around we started to try but not really try. It was if it happens it happens. But when out fifth and sixth year came along we really started trying. When nothing happened we got check out. Come to find out it was my fault we were not getting pregnant. I don't know why but I have be having irregular periods and I haven't been ovulating before I have my period. I was hurt but we kept trying until finally I got pregnant. We were so ecstatic and told the family but three months into my pregnancy I lost the baby. My husband took it hard and so did the rest of our family. We mourned for a while then things started getting better. Then we tried again and kept trying. Each time failed. This is the last time. I can't do it anymore.
"I don't know. I don't know." He answered. He turned back around and looked at me. "I don't want to adopt. I want to have children of my own. My flesh and blood."
"I know. I know and I want the same thing too. I just can't give that to you. I really wanted to. I can't go through this anymore. We lost too many children and I can't deal with this anymore. I can't."
"I need some fresh air. I'll see you later." With that said he walked out the room slamming the door shut. I jumped and started to cry. I knew he was hurt and I knew how bad he wanted this but I am hurting too. He doesn't know what it feels like to have a children die in you and come out. He doesn't know how it feels or how much pain I have been in when it happened. He just walks away when I needed him the most.
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That was the last day my husband stopped being my husband. I stayed in the hospital for a few more days and my husband never showed back up. Only my mother, his mother, and a few friends but that's it. When I went home I was home alone. My husband started to drift away from me. He would work late or never come home. He disappeared for weeks at a time and wouldn't tell me when he was going on business trip or anything. It's like we're two strangers living in our house. All I know is that he better get his act together because once I'm gone I'm gone. You know what they say you won't know what you had until it's gone.